I was thinking this year would be better then last.  Yet this has not come through yet, it's just these bumps in a road you just can not help but hitting one.

 

I am recovering well, and yet so many people in my life are critically ill, some are fading away.  I can deal with my grandmother leaving us she has had such a long live.  Yet my mother is 19 years older then I and I am praying to god the surgery works. Plus my sweet little dog Hope died 7 days ago and I still expect her to be here but she is not.  I am fighting so hard not to fall into the darkness again, so hard.... Some people may say it's the Devil doing all these things, yet in my heart it is part of the circle of life.  Also not all can be blamed on anyone but yourself.  Plus people in my past who hurt me are back because of my mom and grandmother

 

Sorry I have not posted for some time, it's still hard to do between my back and hands.

 

Hopefully all is well in your house and your world

 

~Zenn