For me 2008 pretty much sucked.  I let it slip into darkness and hopefully this year will be brighter.  I lost so many people last year, including my grandmother.  Some of my friends died well before their time.  I think I struggle with this the most.  How old you are when life ends.  I have lost babies and yet we tried for others.  I have lost loved ones who meant so much to me all make me sad in some respect.  For they are gone, only memories remain.  

 

Yet it is the ones 35 years old and younger that hurt the most. It just seems so unfair I just can not wrap my brain around it at all.  It seems so unfair they are gone, and I am still here?

 

I am getting older and everyday I wake up and I am lucky I am here today.  I have plans for this year, one is to see another new baby come into this world.  I think this is what keeps me going.  My family.  No matter how I feel, or what we have or have not.  I feel so lucky I am here to see another day, no matter how good or bad a day is.  I feel good for I am still here.

 

Talk to you later

 

Z