Is it ok to be depress?  I have always been a happy person, I love life, family and friends.  Yet for the past couple of months I have been becoming more depressed.  It is a horrible feeling, I cannot seem to do much and enjoy less.  I want to stay in bed, draw the covers up to my chin and stay there.  I try so hard to hide it among family and friends, but it is getting harder and harder.

I do not know what is making me feel this way?  Or is a combination of things?  Sometimes when it is so quiet, all of a sudden I can not breath and I feel like I am going to die.  It is a strange feeling... so very hard to describe, I was sitting in a movie theater the first time, and it happen.  I had to get up, go to the bathroom and I put cold water on my face.

This has been happening more.... and I do not know why?  But I am trying...

Well enough for now

Zenn